我想一个人静一静... .. ..
沉默的心情, ..

是否这样.. .. 能够平静下来.. ..

out of a sudden,
i started to realise...

thank u! Friends who being ther for me, while i'm in de' darkness..
tx for the pineapple n milo, tissue, encouragement..n support... ..

don worry, i'll b fine...
ya...

为何..和以往..不一样??

我没感觉了...怎么会怎样?...

很陌生了...消失的灵魂, 以飞到无影无踪..

今天在车上..遇见了一位XY同学....

中三那年, 我们同班...前半年很要好...有许多话题讲..

过不久..分班后..友情开始起了变化...

因为在他周围, 有些X朋友..很爱讲是非, 慢慢的我变成为她们的话题之一....

本来常和一般朋友在一起说笑的..也因为如此, 跟我要好的他和他的几位朋友...

也就是这样.. 友情..散了!!.. X开心了吧!!..

在课堂上...她常话中有话....刺伤我...

开始时, 很孤独...不和其他人说话,凡是都是自己来..为自己解围... .. 不知不觉, 我习惯自己独自的活动... ..

怎样的朋友....我都见识过的...一开始, 可能很要好...但相处久了... 不相信的事..发生了!

我承认...自己不是读书的料, 但没有这样因此放弃... ..

我读书的方式...跟其他不一样...需要多点时间应付...

有人说... . "你不用担心.. 一定考到好的啦~" ... ..

你错了!!,,你不是我... 你怎么会了解...

成绩好...不一定,,永远就是... 自己要保持学习的水准..才能获得优良的成绩...

有可能我的能力... ... ..

反正每个人读书方法不一样...也难怪...

无论怎样... 我会尽力的完成3年的学业.. ..

爸妈..没给我压力... 压力是我自己给的.. .. 他们知道我一直都在加油!..很感激你们.. 为我的付出..和信任.. . 直到最后会是怎样..你们不要难过... 只要你们心理知道,班我也会感受得到~

好了... 刚说到这位XY前同学...

在车上的话题很少..没和以往的多... 很安静...周围也较黑暗.. ..

那现在..我们又是同个理工学院...又如何呢?..已经没有让我留念的了.. ..

虽然是成年往事的过去... 但我一回想..就感到悲伤..

友情不是外人来断定的.. 是你自己!!..有没有珍惜过... 可惜的是...你没有啊~!!..

曾是朋友的我们...一下子.. 变成了梦!...都是假的...!!

很希望自己死了!!.. 太过于相信的朋友, 最后最信任的人...变成伤害的最深的. ..

在过后的分班那年... 我开始有了些X朋友...大家很健谈.. ..

在最后一年.. 坐在我旁边的SF..和我...我们两是唯一的两个女生.. 顺利过关了!! ...男生也有好几位... .虽然SF和我..同个学校, 但很少见面... 中学隔壁班的ZH..也一样... ..

我班的有些男生..也进在同一间学校... 但不常看见..

久而久之成了恢... .. 断了线;.. .. 消失在人群中...

过去的回忆... . 已模糊了..开始.. . 放开友情的那道门...

寻找自由..离开这伤心地...藏在一个你我都不知道的地方....

我累了.. ..

解开心中一直带来的困扰... 麻醉自己....从而清醒....

我只知道...在很久以前...

有为叫恩的朋友... 眼泪支流在这伤心地,.. 而她的愿望是希望能够忘记一切的痛苦... 很快乐的生存着.. 去到一个没有眼泪...痛苦...悲伤的地方...

神啊~ 你是否能带我到一个新的世界...走出着地带?... ..

我愿意的和你走...抛开过去... 找寻一个重新的我... ..

今天不知明天事..下一秒会发生什么事...每人知道.... ..(挂上了问号"?")

朋友都以为, 我是个很愉快..开心的.....

都错了!..

在我的心灵深处...有说不完的千言万语..该从和说起??

为何如此的盼望....等候...寻求...

你要答应我...,... 答应我... 我请求你...

我快搬家了喔!!! Moving hse soon ~

妹妹 & me... took it very long ago liao, 小的时候.. 妈妈在旧家拍的=)

@ tat time we lived at jurong east, 我们的童年是在那里度过的... ..

tis afternoon, after lunch... i started to pack my rm stuffs...
at first i thought was lyke 一点点...den 怎么知道... once i started to 大整理...there's actually ALOT 咯~ OMG!!
during our childhood daes.. we used to play tis la.. cute mahx... gt sound leh.. i was packing la.. den i found it in the storerm.. at the top shelf ther..
音乐风车... .. 那年在台湾,,妈妈知道我们很喜欢.. 就买了下来..
现在回想...还满有感触的... .hee*




we don dive...因为小的时候, 觉得很有趣..
now?!.. haha.. cant liao la.. our head too big le.. ..
all de memories seh..~ 是时候给人了...



i used to play violin when i was in k1.. ..
4gotten... all the 豆芽字!!! (aka music score)




i luv it soOoO MUCH!!!
'cos tat's my name!!..lolx..
well, when i was in sec4.. .VALENTINE'S GIFT, 我买来送自己的..
很美哦~.. 好喜欢.. .




四叶草!!...你有听说过它的故事吗?
我很开心的拥有tis clover..'cos 是我妈妈送给我的... ..
always with mi... * 妈咪啊~ 谢谢你 (^_^)




my birthdae present.. frm the gb juniors..
sooooo SWEET!!..arigatou neh~

认得吗???!!!... 有看韩剧吗??,

没错!! is frm 秋天的童话.. .

" 俊熙, 恩熙.."... a very sad, romatic n touching show..

OH!, 眼泪....**

不知不觉...我搬了整个下午... frm 12.30 to 7pm...wah seh~ chionging!!..

look!!.. 我的东西是多到......不行啊~ LOL..

MY 鼓, milk bottle...,f4!!...album...radio...bks.. .cds,vcds,files etc...

i need ard 3 boxes... to "GAO TIM" <-- in hokkien; aka settled..haha

my room!!!.. wazzap??!.. 家进贼???!!!

haha.. no la.. i took all out.. and den arranged it back nicely again..

哦天!!!.. 时尚最COOL的paper bag... 赞!!!

看到没?!! majority of my vcds n cds...all frm F4!!!

他们是第一个台湾男子团体..我最爱的...!! 哈哈哈.. frm the yr 2001 onwards.. during my secondary schlife..有他们陪我哦...till now, 还是一样!!.. 不变~

靠!!.. my rm ar... soooo empty!!

hmmm...still thinking.. still gt any other things 还没有pack好的.. .. mm..

over- SEE!!.. 我家的客厅!!!...

很多BOXES.. 一箱...一箱的东西...still hav.. alot more... at upstairs...

hahahaha...slowly ar..慢慢来~

went to china street tis morning, my mum brought us to sushi teh ...and also called my uncle n aunt , cousins to come along too..

i ordered alot la.. gt don,udon, ramai... .. blar blar blar.. hmm.. we enjoyed the food ar.. ate very full.. den after tat, my mum wanted to go new hse c... soOo alrite lor, my uncle's family follow us along wo.. while on the wae, i saw tis PIE!!!.. chicken pepper pie ...OIISHI~

though i very full liao.. but lyke very nice lehh... so "MUM!!, I WANT THIS! NICE AH~".. n ya.. she bought me this big pie... hahaha

very excited la... so immediately i gt in the car, i open the box... wow~!!!..smell great man=)

so i decided to have one bite... soOoo HOT! tasty ...n delicious...hee*

funny lehh.. i told myself jus "1 bite" BUT u see!?!!... i ate 1/2 of the chicken pepper pie liao.. my mum was driving n the moment she looked at me wif this haf eaten pie....
"OMG!!!.. u.. really can eat!!!"...
WELL, of'cos..nice mahx... gd appetite seh...
LOL..NICE NICE~


my new hse!!... N tis my new rm...
soft orchid color.. .. 紫蓝!!
i lyke my rm soOoO MUCH!!!



tis my sis rm... processing>>,
she wanted it purple..
shld b nice la.. i think... but my one nicer lor.. lolx
jk!.. no comment, both 赞!!!

hmm.. not bad ar.. liling, haha... ur new phone w810i ..

de' cam effect.. 拍的很清楚!! OR i hold it very 稳??!!...HAHA..

没有买错"手提电话"!!... (哈哈... rem the joke?)

CHEERZ=)... 好开心喔 *

aftter meeting, went to meet yanna at yck mrt.. and ahead down to orchard...

watched NANCY DREW sneak preview.. is quite a nice one la...

den we went for dinner together at 3rd floor... hong kong tea shop.. again, we had mango ice-kachang, curry noodle and spag... oiishi!!!

after tat, went to take photo...neoprint!!! .. enjoyed it so much~ tx ger

realli hav a very wonderful dae tdae... hee*

ARIGATOU NEH~

FUN!!!...action seh..

1..2...3...CUT!!! over-run oh~~ lalalala

fad n me...

very happe lar... saw her this morning in the library..

a BIG SURPRISE...WOW~!!

my face lyke beri tired... but im not!! jus take lib too cold liao... (tat's excuse?!!) i think we took this photo.. b4 tat i havn't warm-up yet lah...haa

ME and liling.. .. we took tis photo, while she havin her elective discussion..

but hor.. very sian lehh... how come ar..

tell u ar.. my gp doing mother teresa..早就FINISHED了!!!

but my gp members...still need to double check for me.. hahaha...

ROT掉!!!... 哦~

dear joann & watashi.. hee*

ps: oh girl!... ur sick todae wo~.. very pale..

GET WELL SOON!!!..

i need someone to 和我一起玩的疯狂!!!.. HAHA...&你就是那个FRIEND (=

虽然不成相识... 谢谢你给我的回忆...

从这一开始, 我决定放下.. ..
希望你快乐 ...

美丽. 人生....

>>>在寻找中;....<<<<<<<<<<

LOVE your age with SHISEIDO!!

after lunch, 表姐and i went down to tampines mall, support 我表哥的老婆..哈哈.. she participated this contest.. and wat now u see on stage are the 9 final list... wow~ 太棒了..连我都觉得她很漂亮!.. 对我来说... 怀孕的妇女是 THE MOST BEAUTIFUL~
GOTCHA!! this afternoon... the mc是 bryan wong.. .. .下午, 很多人.. 我被SQUEEZE 到后面去.但还OK啦! 还可以拍的很清楚...hee*

while bryan在发问question时, 美丽的lynn.. 她一点都不nervous.. ,很有自信..表现的很自然, VERY GOOD!.. 在stage下的shawn...lol.. 也很期待她会不会进NEXT ROUND.. & of'cos BINGO!! 那当然..SHE'S IN!!!

表哥Shawn, 看见lynn 一上台.... 不忘了拍照..果然是她的最ENTHU的支持者!!!

好极了哦~

心情日子...

是否相信吗?..

在幻想中..自由的我...放松自己..

带着没有牵挂的心情, 放开所有的一切... ..

看不清楚自己的样子,但心理明白...

虽然照片只能让我留下回忆...这... ..已经足够了噢~

我感觉到.. .. 某种的黑暗...(黑白不分?!)..
有一种, 他认识我..我不认识他的样子..
这世上...人类不可能...完美..
一定会有漏洞, 而是.. ...由自己来填补...
尽管你是快乐, 伤心, 开心 还是痛心.. .. 有一天...
不愉快的事也会忘记...不过值得我永远收在我脑海里的记忆...
我会珍惜, 不会把它忘记...

那你呢?.. 最后让你开心; 感觉最幸福的是什么时候?... ..

我....我.... ..
我已经不太记得了... ..
因为, 每天所过的生活情景都不一样...
开心?... 那是什么??
从心理和表情来说, 可以看到不同的一面...
是真还是假?..只有自己知道..
但人总想逃避自己所看和想的...
那是一种保护自己的方式,
虽然不完全盖过..但始终有同个想法...
你心中的那道门..只能由自己来开锁..
加油吧!..

*** 在某年...我听过这段话;

[我相信人间会有奇迹, 暮色里也会有七彩的长虹...]

恩 [陌生人] ***

最近是忙到~~~,rushing my 2 ppt; elective and deveolpm psycho.. . 你问我, WHY??..那么FAST?!. 我也不清楚.. 'cos 突然有FEEL..所以有mood 的去做. Through these 2 ar... r not so soOn, but den time past very fast de lor..一转眼, 就PRESENT 了!! KAO~ 见鬼咯~
well, 感觉上.. 还有做不完的东西.. 天啊! 想不起来lehh... 等一下吧! i jus eaten my lunch.. my brain system 还在操作..哈哈哈..
ohya!.. fri nite, my aunt and uncle came.. 他们把maid寄放在我家, staying for abt 1 wk plus ar, they going aust...i think so... she ok la.. 喜欢read books.. wah!!.. 比我更爱"tah-chay"..<-- IN HOKKIEN.. hee* and also love reading newsapaper every morning.. totally 跟我不一样.. i lyke reading chinese bks ( 心理学; 爱情;恋爱; 感动; 深情动人...) as for eng bk, 我好像从没有finish the whole entire bk b4.. ohh.. chapter by chapter 就有咯! 嘿~ not bad liao lor.. lolx. MOST OF THE TIME.. eng newspaper, i will read the "life" part nia... unless有惊人的头条新闻!!!.. den for chinese, i'll see from teh back de.. hmm.. tv prog... new show showing in cinema..er.. horosope n blar blar blar.. tell you ar, sunday newsapaper i LOVE MOST!!!.. espically "现在" NOW!!.. everything inside..cool~
after this, going to do my dental care liao.. 一忙起来, 就forget abt food...lolx..can 减肥了啦!!
alright, gt to go le.. .. take care wo..(^__^)

stay up late ytdae in sch, finding bks in lib for my ica... wahaha.... dental care seh.. 感觉自己好像change了course..lolx.. cant be lar.. haa, 我过的还好好的... 嗯..=)

den also find resource on mother theresa.. i found one bk r/t her.. borrowed le! gt to 慢慢读.. don rush mi hor.. 'cos nowsadae 我也是很BUSY的咯~

after gym n badminton... me, shakira, linz and fad went to mac... wow~ it's was a tiring dae for mi.. but im fine,.. jus tat i kept wonderin and thought of forgettin something abt it... but 不可能.. 她那自?足?的个性, 真叫人反感!!.. .. 没有什么话要跟她说... everything seem to b changin alot.. even the ppl ard.. no longer 和以往一样了..
我不排除人会变, 但一切卫冕太快了.. 你自己有可能不觉得, 但在你和朋友沟通的时候... 感觉和了解上, 好像在和陌生人说话... 你呢?.. 是否有想过这一点吗?..
有还是没有.. 你自己可以依瞒着.. 但对我来说, 事实摆在眼前... 想否认?.. 也无所谓..
我已经看透你了!!... 真是可悲~

ytdae the bio 60 mcqs...OMG!!哮了!!!... 完了, LOLX!...反正都过了, grade 出来了.. 在看吧.. bio 不是我的强项,tat's why.. i've a very hard time...well, "bo bian" nah~ gt to 靠 memorise it.. betta den nth...haha.. 无论怎样, 只要个PASS..就OK 了!.. 天啊~

忠告: 今天, 本小姐.. 心情很LOST!..不要在我面前说太多话.. 否则后果自负horr..
haiz; speechless*

this morning, went for my clinical skill.. n i PASSED!!.. haa.. monday will be my bio pract and wed psycho ica... wahaha... 2 more to go for next wk.. and den my 2 wks break liao... soOoo NICE!.. WOW~
Now, im in sch eplaza.. and surprisingly.. the comp here can actually go friendster de.. mayb some.. and im so lucky.. hmm..too bad, i no friendster a/c..soOo.. bleah~~lolx.. well, ytdae nite..feelin soOo NERVOUS for todae pract, i called huda n liling... tok till very late... den after tat went bk to memorise the medication name and uses... oOoO... sitting on the rockin chair.. and here i rock until i went K.O..LOL.. middle of the nite, i moved!.. n this morning i found myself lyin on the living room floor.. omg!.. i actually sleep walkin huh???!!... choi!, tat's was scary seh.. ohya!, continue bk to the conversation.. i was tokin to liling on phone.. out of sudden the phone line cut off... most properly, her hp low batt.. soOo it'ok..
at nite, went to surf net... n i view my (mom's) blog... great, she updated her latest entry... but somehow i can feel her saddness... it's actually quite hard for her to express her emotion out..cos hardly to get someone to tok to.. who can understand ur story.. and how's it goes throughout.. er... don worry! gal, sooner...we'll b meeting up .. and u shall share wif me ..ur life story..
i was thinkin of buying hard-disk @ sim lim.. .. to put all movie and video stuffs.. 'cos "mom" hav already standby lotta of shows for me.. and i shall get frm her n transfer over to a bigger cap.. my dad said he will buy for me.. i'll choose n he will pay.. 10- u!.. arigatou neh~
alrite.. i gt to stop here.. hav to study my bio .. "endocrine system".. dunno where to get it started.. but den i'll start of wif anatomy first.. b4 goin ani further... ya!..
will be goin for my attachment during july.. CGH! after tat.. ard aug.. will b in KK hosp... YAHoOo..~i'm waiting.. hehe..