妈妈の手

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短短的一小时,.. 我们母女两人..走过不同的地方...

最难忘的还是那.. 美丽鲜艳的彩色桥.. .

妈眯, 你的眼睛会没事的.. ..

当你感到最寂寞的时候,..请把双眼闭起来..

回想起, 有我在的时候..最让你开心的事.

当你孤单,.. 不快乐,..悲伤时...

你虽然不告诉我, 但我已经知道了.. 能够感受到你的全部.

我会很珍惜的陪着你.. 一直到..最终,你;我心跳停止.. .

me & dilah!!

下课后, after 5pm..是我们的时间..

during clinical lab..

maoxue, yanna and ci en ..

老师又LATE 了!!.. 靠~~

but aniwae,..心情好.. 不计较.. hahax..

酷哦!!.. 自然就是美的喔~

maoxue, yanna

HAHA!.. dilah 的new hairstyle=)

很neat lor..

Ytdae nite, was toking to my senior ..

though he had jus grad but 他还是很关心 the troupe 的进展 &training..

很感激.. 已经毕业的alumini 的前来.. 哈哈.. eg. ADAM!!谢谢你了=)

这半年.. 有你的帮助也帮了我们不少.... 辛苦了!

& 最近..也碰上了caiyun .. .& of'cos our NEW coach!.. tx for coming down las wed! n hopefully i'll b seein u guys soon =)

此外, tis few dae.. 也联络到 sixing n jiahao 还有 cecilia..

他们虽然...有工作在忙.. 也不忘了.. 发SMS给我.. 了解这里的活动... 真的很感动!

好有成就感咯~ ..

my banner design .. was up there sia..

for all the preparation done.. i gt to tx my troupe ppl wo.. & also my classmates ar, gt mai n huda 帮我把banner 挂起来.. YEAH*

人虽然少,.. 但力量大!!!
(but actually not only lyke tat nia,.. still gt plus plus++.. lolx)

ya! 在这里, 我也要特别的谢谢JI 'JI!!!

为我们设计那么好看的banner.

thank u so much =)

n here!.. very touched sia..

during the 2 days clubcrawl event..yanting 常跑来探班. LOL..

OH对!CONGRAT* Y.T interviewed 过关!! ..

去到那么远.. 记得好好take care lehx.. hee

TIS JOANN!! 很故意的咯~~~

see tat face of hers... lolx.. CUT!!!

最近虽然是很忙.. . 但有些事,.. 还是不会忘记的...

me & yanna=)

haha..she's realli a very nice gal, yea~..

during tutorial .. . still waiting for "迟到皇后"... LOL

frm the first dae of sch till now..她从来没有一天ON TIME 的.. .

WAT'S WRONG MAN~

everytime she's late... 都会有reason behind de.. haiz.. r all "借口"咯~

but tx ar.. if not.. these 3 gals.. no chance take photo.. n somemore it's soOOO "卡哇衣".. 哈哈=)

frm left: huda, liling n yanting.. (TAKE 1)

*YANTING AH!! 你MOVE 太厉害了~ ..

TAKE 2*

哇SEH~ 不错嘛..

* OMG!.. 这就是STRESS 过头的结果... aiyo.. n den ONLY liling .. 比较正常.. LOL..

OH天!.. they're going to MAO mi...

RUN~~~~~~

手机的铃声...一直在响... . .
是要接呢?..还是.. .
(当决定要接的时候.. i've gt MISSED CALL了!)
... ..

these few dae, i realli not prepared to ans any of the phone call.. .
我是在逃避吗? ..

可能是吧!. ..
i'm sorry~

是否能够结束呢?

不用说,.. 我已经知道了!

人都再改变,.. 我也不例外.
可是就是没人明白..

我的周围,..一直被困扰着...
好烦的...

有句话说... "世上只有妈妈好!"..

很害怕..没有这机会再对她好... ..

因为种种原因.. .. 就是很担心妈妈...

她的双眼已经慢慢的引向到了.. . 眼前看的东西开始模糊.. 不怎么清楚..

我哭了... ..

心在想... 妈妈是否会在一刹那间,..看不清我的样子, 就被带到...黑暗的世界去...

她其实不说, 我也明白的.. .

ME: 妈眯! 你眼睛有好一点吗?

MUM: 还是一样... 现在左边的眼睛, 也不听话了.. 很蒙.

ME: (我的心感应到了, 突然感觉到痛, 有点想要哭...)

: 靠在床上..用枕头盖住我的脸...很蒙面的说; "如果你有一天很真需要眼角膜的话.. 我会给你.."

(讲完的那句话.. 我的眼泪便流落下来.. 所发出来的声音..带点哭伤..)

MUM: 为什么? ...值得吗?

(我的答案是... "值得, 我会这样做". .但最后的答复, 我没对她说.. )

妈妈眼睛现在所需要的... 我真的帮不了什么... 真的..

如果可以做到的.. 我一定会! ..

因为.. 她是我的命...

可能你问我.. 为什么这样做?.. .

我想说的是,...我这样不是因为叫牺牲... 而是为了"爱"..

well, first dae of sch... 我开始想太多了.
BUT was realli fun ... esp when i saw my friends tis morning in the lab... hahax..

简单的feel, 让我觉得好快乐! ..

好SAD 噢~

天啊!．下午要吃午餐的时候, 才发现菜变黄了!!..

mum told me not to eat ar.. .. 然后就"BUANG".. 哈...

我的veg!!.. .

leftover de.. still very green 1.. WOW~ 还好咯*

luckily is not my KANG KONG 发黄! ..IF NOT.. 我会跟加的sad lor..

菜没有煮, 久后当然发黄啊!..

算一算,.. 从我去camp until NOW!..不坏, 才怪啦~ LOL!

oh.. tml sch starts liao.. YR 3 咯~ 哈哈:)

有好久没有看见同班的classmates le.. hmmm, tml lesson start @ 8am.. gonna wake up early.

wahhx..新学期到了, 压力是否会比往年多呢?..

aniwae,.. JIA YOU 吧!.. 一转眼很快就毕业了.. cool!

"Hoi' sum" !! (:

早上, meet liling 7.30am @ Arts to buy books.

walked to block H & already saw ppl waiting down there le..

"SOME" R 超级怕输....the bookshop 还没有开.. 前面看不到人BUT bags 都排好队了!!.. 哦靠!!.. 需要怎样meh?.. last yr also the same.. only 我没有拍下来而已.. 现在还是一样.. 莫非又是"同样的一堆人??" HA HA HA!!

alright, 那是小事...我不怎么计较.. 因为只是排一下下的队, 书就买到了.. 那何必呢?.. hee*

shuying, esther ,yuchen, huda, liling n 我.. after we bought the books.. we went to clubrm settled down first.. . 帮忙一些朋友买...可是没有办法带回家... 'cos is very very heavy lor, total of 7 mod books hor.. aiyo! 所以好心人出现了!!... tat's mi.. 哈哈.. 她们可以放心出门, 书本可以暂时借放咯~

so after tat, me..huda, liling and shuying headed down to bugis junction to hav our breakfast 'cum lunch.. lolx.. all of us were very hungry sia.. as evidenced by:

we went to swensens to makan. .. so liling ordered the package set meal. the one also dunno wat soup来的.我们4 个都tested 过了.. 就是lyke miss out 什么味道的.. 很weird lor..
wahhx.. u c her! 好像有3天没吃饭的样子lehh.. LOL.. well, actually 不是这样的,.. 想知道真正的答案, 你自己问她吧!.. 她会很乐意的跟你explain... wahhha.

tis drink also together wif the package set de... quite gassy sia!!.. but i can taste abit of soda inside.

shuying and huda =)
在POLY..都快要三年了, and this the first time 4 of us 一起出去lehh..不知道几时还会有这机会或时间.. ?.. 开学后.. 大家要加油哦!! .. LAST YR LIAO!!.. 要冲喔~ 必胜!!

我和liling..

during this holz.. 几乎每天都看到她咯~ .. 真是有缘噢*

来!! 快快pose 一个胜利的姿势吧!! 哈哈哈哈... CHEESE:)

OMG!!.. LILING 快要把CHERRIE 给吃掉了!!! OH NO!

A ...不是.. .i mean 是"CHERRY" !! LOL

me and huda!

she jus came back frm YEP.. 也跟大家分享很多有趣的story and experience leh..

cool!

huda told me,..she wanted to get bond.. 因为有了$$$,.. 她又可以去CAMBODIA 多一次了!!.. LOL.. HUDA 你赢了!!

WOW~~好吃!!.. OIISHI NEH*... 太丰富了!!

开动!!

合照(^_^)

from left: liling, shuying, me and huda..

infront of us....是 甜品咯~.. 名字叫: 地震 (EARTHQUAKE)

冷到~~~~~~

HUDA!!.. . 你有这样饿吗?? 哈哈..

just kidding..

她不要浪费啦, just left a bit more only... hehehe

went to THE CATHEY (near YMCA) watched "RUN PAPA RUN"

哇!! 这是第一次去那里看戏leh..

FIRST TIME stepped into this place..

也不会忘了自拍咯~.. SMILEZ (^_^)

after movie, 就left me and liling ... so went down to ceineleisure B.K!

OH天! my fries and onion ringssss,..hee*

after tat, we slowly walked to FAR EAST 啦!..

在nearby 我们做了一个survey.. 然后慢慢的走过.. 就更多了... 哇SEH!!

went to 77th street,.. this liling 很想要打多一个earhole..

她一直要/不要的.. .&den 我就helped her ask the price lor.. $6.

she wanted me to acc her...(就是我也要打咯~... )

"HUH??.. 不要lehz.."

cute lor, she... 她说玩scissor paper stone.. 如果我输, 就要陪她打..

SOOOO... 好!.. 我答应她!

in the end... she lost.. ha hahaha.. ..

see! i told you :) 很快的!.. 就搞定了!

好开心啊的样子...

成就感哦~~~

went down for training early todae.. omg! lolx.. luckily my troupe pplz.. managed to come down sia..

official training was at 6.30pm.. as usual we got to train for the upcoming club-crawl event lor.. i'm sooo surprise todae,.. many of them came down..even the EXs, sifu!!?! (ADAM!! u ar...) etc..

was very tiring de..first time me n liling trained together wif the head/tail. mayb i not so use to it la..

"inside" realli made us feel so breathless..i complained of darkness n liling ar.. perspiring lyke HELL!!

我很累..又渴.. my energy gonna used up .. .

& tis rayson walked to me.. n said "YOU CAN DO IT!..IT'S A MATTER OF MIND OVER BODY" 啊!! 哦天! 又来一个mind over body ...这是他的名言...ALMOST everytime he keep saying the same thing, haha... just keep repeating lor..

well den, i noe la.. 他的好意..LOL! 我明白的..

left sch @ 10plus.. 4 of us at the bus terminal..wating for "NO." to come..

so while waiting, we took numerous of photos la..

yea! rite. using MY PHONE.

hey~dont blame me ar.. i still trying to figure it out.. mayb i not quite use to it.. hahahha..

every photos i took jus now, will def miss out one person.. the "LUCKY" one will be those at the side.. ppl in the middle.. win liao lor.. lolx.

can see rite??.. i actually did edited the photo.. not realli perfect.. but at least 还好..not too bad lor.. see it from far will be a nice one .. 但还是会有some ppl.. go enlarge it =)..来看穿我的漏洞.. (well.. frm here onwards... 是不是很多东西讲啊?..哈哈哈... )

aniwae.. next time there will still gt chance to take again.. and i garantee 不会有人不见掉啦!!

enghua (被我CUT掉!..因为.. 他动摇.. 排不到face, tat's why 我就干却一点咯~) follow by liling, joann n me..

秘密中的---[灵魂之窗]

早上, my dad n i acc my mum to TTSH for 眼睛appointment.
妈眯告诉我说...她的vision, getting more n more blur(-er).. 我是真的越来越害怕!!!
她眼睛常常还看见.... . "SO-CALLED" 奇怪的letter wordz.

起初.. 眼里浮现" C" 开头的image... 但一过了两个星期... 从"C"..慢慢更进入状态..."S"字头的影像出现了!!! 眼角周围有些说不明的东西.. .
家人真的很担心...一再提醒一定要注意... 尤其是在路上架车啊~

我因为不要让妈妈keep thinking of the neg- side.. 所以便想想办法逗她..哈哈..
i told mum, the letter"S" 可能再暗示你说... 你的第六感, 很快会超越一般的强,..要告诉你些什么什么的.. LOL..
妈眯.. 听过后... 笑到~~~ 还说我没有"罗机" a.k.a "LOGIC"..当然啦~ ..& 爸爸也忍不了我的"HOT JOKE".. 一直在心里偷笑.. .
我就不一样了.. 因为是我讲的吗..所以都比任和人..开始先LOL.. 哇,哈哈哈!!

went in to the eyes specialist clinic wif my mum n dad.. .护士为妈妈点点药水.. to help in refreshing n de'other one for dilation purpose. . .so 1/2 an hr later, my mum walked in to the doc's rm for checkup. so 3 of us went in.. it's like quite a "big" group sia.. 本来我是想要在外头等他们...但老爸对我说.."既然都来了, 你不妨也去听听..看医生怎么说?"..
"有道理... 进去的是我妈lehhx.. 甚为孩子的..也是非常好奇的多了解妈妈的状况啊!.. ". DR. OWEN 为妈妈做了一个很详细的测试.. when after my mum had actually told him how's the vision like and kinda of image she's facin now. .so he did a int.test to check if the bld vessel burst internally? .. optic nerve has affect the back of the brain sys?.. any wrong wif the capillary body...etc.. ".. He dimmed the light, 另外用一种强烈的灯光照射妈妈的眼睛. . n dr owen did a 360 degree angle test...

在过程中... 她好辛苦哦.. dr owen had to widen my mum eyes.. n used a strong touch to spot for abnormality.. n after 10mins later..她因为眼睛很受不了刺激... 好累,好难受啊!... 眼泪也在不知不觉中流落了下来.. 医生马上gave my mum de cotton piece and told her...not to worry, also explain to her wat's going to b done next.. DR OWEN strongly recommend my mum to do an eyes scan.. so he will be able to see more in detail.... as currently it was still "unknown" case. .. . acc my mum to take a diagnostic test.. .we need not to wait for so long.. as this was followed by the doc's order.. .must be the first priority..hhaha.. took abt 5mins ther.. and went back to the clinic..very soon later, the same doc, DR OWEN cld already tell wat's wrong by viewing the scan result. 他告诉妈妈..这个问题很轻微.. 不算是很严重.. .但还是要多多monitor.. 因为vision getting more and more 模糊的关系...所以.. . he told my mum the next appt will be one month later. .那到时候如果有什么变化地立刻联络这里..或是其间出现or havin any new signs n symptoms... hav to contact them asap. ..
although... .妈妈现在算是还OK!.. 但我..还是.. 不放心很多,很多.. 就是cant explain it out la.. haiz..

i got to stop here.. though i still got lotta more things to sae ..but it'ok!..
有些事情, 是没有办法说明的..也好难去解释. 但并不是说我会忘记.. ..
那简单的说, 就是开不了口...

Yesterday, meet shuying & cherrie at city hall ctrl stat, 1pm. 'cos i was slightly late la.. shuying n cherrie 都等不急了, ..they gone to buy bread n cake, while waiting for me to come. I so pai seh lor.. haa. 我们到M.S 的PIZZA HUT... 吃lunch:) went for the package lunch and additn oreo-cookies ice-cream...wahhaa. so while waiting for meals to come, we chit-chattin... toking non stop sia... soooo as usual i was those kind talking damn fast de.. n cherrie jus cant get it , she HUH ME somemore... dotz sia... n 3 of us jus burst out laughing out loud.

hmm... 在谈天的时候, cherrie 也有稍为update us...她的最近情况..

哇!!..让我透露一下...cherrie 有很多boyz, chasin after her...but too bad 他有B.F 了.. LOLX.!!

虽然是这样, 但偶尔也会想想...这是她要的幸福吗?... .. 尤其是现在.. .

昨天唱K,..唱到很HIGH 咯~.. 大家都很快乐....SUPER ENJOY!! DAMN FUN sia... although only jus 3 of us... but 我们还是把气氛带到最高点... 十分疯狂!!!

me, shuying & cherrie :)

me and shuying... cheese!!

yeah!!~ shuying n cherrie .. "K" queen siaz..

me & cherrie.. (^_^)

yoYo!! LET'S GET HIGH!!...WAHAHA~

shuying n cherrie (omg!! look at her face.. soOo LOL man~)

i'm realli very enjoy..havin time spent singing wif them..it's soOoo wonderful!!.. thanks so much oh! take care pplz.

OBS!!! (31Mar- 3Apr'08)

I'M BACK!
wow~ i enjoyed the camp soOo much sia..
although was very tiring throughout when we went for 'thousand miles' of kayaking and tracking..but it was really a very nice experience. i've learnt a lot during these 4 days, gt to know and understand myself better and it's so extremely fun! having large gp of new friends together from all diff cca...fully entertained by the joy and laughter. OF'COS the very 'LAME JOKES' ...got the COLD and HOT jokes somemore.. wah liao~ hee

there's lotta of things to share here...
但快乐的时光..will留在回忆里 .. 哈哈..
well, aniwae.. if i mention abt it now.. i will 'AUTOMATIC' start to talk alot... 'NON-STOP' ..!! lolx. tat's wat my instructor n team-mates said de... wahaha..